Heartfelt
Having my iced green tea now while tryin to pen down my thoughts here. Decided not to head out tonight so as to spend time with myself. These days had been overwhelmed with wholeloads of emotions. Not due to pms though. Guess I am just too stress up about life. Still trying my very best to deal with stress and not to be overly paranoid with regards to certain issues.
Issue #1 - Friends
As the saying goes , only the bestest friends stay throughout and those fair-weathered ones comes & goes. I had quite a number of friends that drifted due to maybe being busy and all. But still, I miss them. 2 of them infact. That I am totally not close with them anymore and I feel really sad. I miss the time we get together again. Shorty J and Tall-girl R. Maybe it’s me not being a good friend, but I really did try my best to be already. Is it just me or do ya all feel sad too? Like when I read J’s blog, there’s no me anymore. Maybe, it’s just life and I just got to accept it.
Issue #2 - Hypocrites
Everyone is wearing a mask to face others. If you’re lucky enough, you might just find some who doesnt wear a mask and treat you to the best they can.From time to time, I put on my defense shield and tried not to be too close to some people whom I deem as hypocrites. Still, I need to try harder.. I wish it’s just me getting paranoid. I hate it when people get close to me with motives?
Sigh..
I need a holiday break.
Pray hard this saturday’s plan wont get cancelled or what.
I need a short break, just a day would do too.
And also, I am missing my loverboy. Alot.
Till I cant breathe.
Cause, I’m always crying when I’m missing him ):